a lonely christmas

everything is changing now, christmas should be a wonderful time to spend with family and friends, we prepare for christmas party together, going to church, wait for every relatives to come to visit our house.

now what? I don't feel any christmas in here, everything just the same way as yesterday even more lonely :( wish I can spend it with my family at least, but I can't.

so what I have to do now? my parents told me not to be sad, it's okay for this year if I'm alone, maybe God have something special for me. They said, that's not necessary to be together but wherever we are, our hearts always belong together.

yes Dad, Mom, Sister, I wish you a big merry christmas, I love you and will always love you, stay healthy and happy :)

and for this christmas, what will I do? going to church of course and spend it with my best friend in here, thanks guys not leave me so lonely in here, I love you too

a christmas song,

from faith hill - where are you chrismast?

Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love

take me away

I have always walked alone
A Crossroad, living by myself
But this time you said you will take me away, to some corner, just you and me

Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Everytime I will go far away by myself
Keeping my silence, not creasing my forehead
But this time you said let’s go together
Being gentle with each other from now on.


Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

White Horse glides through, an encomposing darkness, the tide invading, wave surging
solidify on the coast (into something black)
Wild rose pointing toward the praire, the mailman bringing rainbows
Carved into my heart, pulsing


Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will becomes bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
Take me away.

photo : oprisco

poem : rainie yang