a lonely christmas

everything is changing now, christmas should be a wonderful time to spend with family and friends, we prepare for christmas party together, going to church, wait for every relatives to come to visit our house.

now what? I don't feel any christmas in here, everything just the same way as yesterday even more lonely :( wish I can spend it with my family at least, but I can't.

so what I have to do now? my parents told me not to be sad, it's okay for this year if I'm alone, maybe God have something special for me. They said, that's not necessary to be together but wherever we are, our hearts always belong together.

yes Dad, Mom, Sister, I wish you a big merry christmas, I love you and will always love you, stay healthy and happy :)

and for this christmas, what will I do? going to church of course and spend it with my best friend in here, thanks guys not leave me so lonely in here, I love you too

a christmas song,

from faith hill - where are you chrismast?

Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love

take me away

I have always walked alone
A Crossroad, living by myself
But this time you said you will take me away, to some corner, just you and me

Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Everytime I will go far away by myself
Keeping my silence, not creasing my forehead
But this time you said let’s go together
Being gentle with each other from now on.


Like the mystery of the soil grasping the flower tightly
Like the turbulence of the sky tangling with the rain
Behind you, counting steps, every rearview, every scene
I had dreams of them

Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

White Horse glides through, an encomposing darkness, the tide invading, wave surging
solidify on the coast (into something black)
Wild rose pointing toward the praire, the mailman bringing rainbows
Carved into my heart, pulsing


Take me away, to the far future
Take away my recurring loneliness
Take me away even if my love, your freedom will becomes bubbles
I’m not afraid, Take me away.

Take me away even if my love, your freedom will become bubbles
Take me away.

photo : oprisco

poem : rainie yang

it hurts

really an awesome song, actually I like it most because of the music video. I can feel the sadness from this song. I love their costume, make up, the location from their mv, you guys have to the mv

[CL] You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy] It seems that we're already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can't turn back?

[Dara] I'm the only one hurting tonight

[Bom] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn't deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom] Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it's a lie, please tell me it isn't so
I can do better now, though we can't meet again

[Dara] I'm the only one in pain tonight

[CL] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You're no longer your old self
[CL] Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara] Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom] No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

[Dara] Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can't you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can't you keep loving me?

[Bom] Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
[Minzy] It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] It hurts, it hurts
[CL] It hurts, it hurts

BOTANI GARDEN

my last day for this semester holiday, I used for spend my time in botani garden - putrajaya. Such a nice place, green everywhere, with clear air and also cool scenery. There are a lot of tourisms at there and also the citizens who want to spend their free time for biking or maybe just walk around to see sunset. Botani garden quite big, beside a lot of plants, there also a pound and an artistic building. We took some photos at there. We had so much fun. at the end I realize that my holiday is over and I have to face my silly sucks assigment again, hahaa. wish me luck guys

photo by : agung cahyandaru and yudy ardi akbar

colouring by : me

UNSPOKEN

unspoken - by oprisco

Here guys, I found a lot of girl's quote from www.allgreatquotes.com, check it out

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Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere.

Mae West

There are no good girls gone wrong - just bad girls found out.
Mae West

Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. THAT'S relativity.
Albert Einstein

I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass.
Maya Angelou

A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.
Coco Chanel

I was about half in love with her by the time we sat down. That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty... you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are.
J. D. Salinger
The Catcher in the Rye, spoken by Holden Caulfield

Girls. You never know what they're going to think.
J. D. Salinger
The Catcher in the Rye, spoken by Holden Caulfield

If a girl looks swell when she meets you, who gives a damn if she's late? Nobody.
J. D. Salinger
The Catcher in the Rye, spoken by Holden Caulfield

There are two things that are more difficult than making an after-dinner speech: climbing a wall which is leaning toward you and kissing a girl who is leaning away from you.
Winston Churchill

I like when a guy makes me feel like a woman and a little girl at the same time.
Tara Reid

A true man does not need to romance a different girl every night, a true man romances the same girl for the rest of her life.
Ana Alas

If you can make a girl laugh - you can make her do anything.
Marilyn Monroe

Why does a man take it for granted that a girl who flirts with him wants him to kiss her - when, nine times out of ten, she only wants him to want to kiss her?
Helen Rowland

I've been looking for a girl like you - not you, but a girl like you.
Groucho Marx

Four things a woman should know: How to look like a girl, How to act like a lady, How to think like a man, And how to work like a dog.
Author Unknown

A girl can wait for the right man to come along but in the meantime that still doesn't mean she can't have a wonderful time with all the wrong ones.
Cher

When a girl goes bad--men go right after her.
Mae West

No one knows how it is that with one glance a boy can break through into a girl's heart.
Napoleon Bonaparte

I wrote the story myself. It's about a girl who lost her reputation and never missed it.
Mae West

If I were a girl, I'd despair. The supply of good women far exceeds that of the men who deserve them.
Robert Graves

You may admire a girl's curves on the first introduction, but the second meeting shows up new angles.
Mae West

It is rare that one can see in a little boy the promise of a man, but one can almost always see in a little girl the threat of a woman.
Alexandre Dumas

Go girl, seek happy nights to happy days.
William Shakespeare

To find out a girl's faults, praise her to her girl friends.
Benjamin Franklin

She's the kind of girl who climbed the ladder of success wrong by wrong.
Mae West

A girl is a person who screams at the mouse and smiles at the wolf.
Shyam Kapoor

A girl's legs are her best friends, but the best of friends must part.
Redd Foxx

I never knew a girl who was ruined by a book.
James Walker

God help you if you are an ugly girl, 'course too pretty is also your doom, 'cause everyone harbors a secret hatred for the prettiest girl in the room.
Ani Difranco

Experience is by far the best teacher. You know, ever since I was a little girl I knew that if you look both ways when you cross the street, you'll see a lot more than traffic.
Mae West

After making love I said to my girl, "Was it good for you too?" And she said, "I don't think this was good for anybody.
Garry Shandling

Here am I: at one stroke incestuous, adulteress, sodomite, and all that in a girl who only lost her maidenhead today! What progress, my friends... with what rapidity I advance along the thorny road of vice!
Marquis De Sade

If you are ever in doubt as to whether to kiss a pretty girl, always give her the benefit of the doubt.
Thomas Carlyle

A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.
Dave Matthews Band

It's the good girls who keep diaries; the bad girls never have the time.
Tallulah Bankhead

I really can't deny it, I am who I am. I'm pretty normal. I'm not that smooth type of girl. I run into things, I trip, I spill food. I say stupid things... I really don't have it all together.
Katie Holmes

Every girl should use what Mother Nature gave her before Father Time takes it away.
Dr. Laurence J. Peter
American Educator and Writer.

When a girl ceases to blush, she has lost the most powerful charm of her beauty.
Pope Gregory I
Also known as Gregory the Great

Big girls need big diamonds.
Elizabeth Taylor

There are so many girls, and so few princes.
Liza Minnelli

Men seldom make passes At girls who wear glasses.
Dorothy Parker

I never expected to see the day when girls would get sunburned in the places they do now.
Will Rogers

Girls have an unfair advantage over men: if they can't get what they want by being smart, they can get it by being dumb.
Yul Brynner

I never cared for fashion much, amusing little seams and witty little pleats: it was the girls I liked.
David Bailey

Girls blush, sometimes, because they are alive, half wishing they were dead to save the shame. The sudden blush devours them, neck and brow; They have drawn too near the fire of life, like gnats, and flare up bodily, wings and all. What then? Who's sorry for a gnat or girl?
Elizabeth Barrett Browning

hello readers, hello bloggie, hello cyberworld, hello internet :D

setelah melewati satu bulan penuh kesengsaraan tanpa internet, akhirnyaa rumah baruku ada internet *bahagiakelewatan, gara-gara gada internet blog ga keurus, facebook dibengkalaikan, ga pernah update allkpop apalagi nonton dari mysoju, gabisa webcaman bareng mama dan papa. Akhirnya gue sadar kalo ga bisa hidup tanpa internet, ahahahhaa

well readers, I've been through my first semester, ga kerasa sudah kuliah satu semester aja, banyak banget hal gila yang ga bisa dilupain, mulai dari ga tidur cukup berhari-hai gara gara ngurusin final project, belum lagi kehidupan di cyber yang keras dan heboh, dan tidak terlupa belajar last minute an buat final exam. Ahahahahahaa, semua itu ga bakal kelupa :D

gue makin kerasan di cyber, but I miss Balikpapan so badly, emang bener gada tempat yang lebih nyaman daripada hometown sendiri. Tapi bukan berarti gue ga suka disini, I love cyber :D cyber especially mmu life is very unique ! banyak banget deh orang unik disini, sampe sampe gue ngerasa kalo anak anak indo di mmu ini udah pada ga punya urat malu semua, ahahahaha.

belakangan ini gue ikutan kontes yang dibuat anak-anak indo namanya CYBERIDOL.

Acara ini udah ada dari tahun lalu, kontes gila gilaan anak cyber, tepatnya kayak idol2an gitu sih, jadi kontestannya boleh solo ataupun grup, terus yang daftar bakal diaudisi, caranya harus ngepost video lip-sync kita ke facebook baru daftarin diri deh ke page cyberidolnya.

gue gabung di singlet ladies bareng kak ibah and kak dede, kita nge lip-sync lagunya rossa-tegar dan kita betiga sukses mengeluarkan ke-taik-an kita bertiga, akhirnya masuk final deh, sayangnya kita cuma dapet juara harapan 1, tapi gapapa kok kita udah seneng banget. yang juara 1 nya G-dadari, sumpah mereka tuh dewa banget, moto mereka aja udah "kami g-dadari ga punya malu" ahahahaha, kalian semua harus liat videonya di page cyberidol di facebook.

gue cinta cyber dehh :D cyber ROCKS ! ahahahahahaaa

setelah gue bisa ngecek blog, gue juga baru liat postingannya KARINA PRASISTI, sumpaaah ai miss youu too dearrr, really miss you :( kangen banget sama karin, kangen ngajarin dia kedewasaan, kangen ngegossip hot bareng dia, kangen ngebahas fashion bareng dia, belum lagi ngebahas suju yang ga ada habisnya, I really miss that moments rin, I wish I can go back to balikpapan, sayang next year mungkin baru bisa, sabaar yah ntar kita mainan lagiii, kalo ga kamu yang kesini lah rin :D

gue juga kangen banget sama VANIA ADELINE JANUAR dan EMELY TANDRAYANI, kangeeen banget sama mereka berdua, kangen curhat sama mereka, kangen mainan sama mereka, kangen nongkrong berjamjam di jco bareng merekaa, I miss you two s badly too

and then ga terlupa semua geng gila OSIS, AJENG, DAPE, IBHE, KITING, ACIL, semua semua anak osis dehhh, kangen ngosis bareng kalian, nginap bareng, sibuk bareng

kangeen juga sama JUITA, FELY, ULY, RIANA, VELINE, NIO ! ahahahahahaa

dan terakhir, AXELL ! heeeyy the thirteen dude people ! kangenn pusing belajar bareng kalian, KANGEN NGELES SAMA BU MUNIFA, PAK SLAMET ! ahahaahaa, kangen nyampah ngeles di Pak win, karena gue ga pernah ngerti pak win jelasin apa, ahahahahahaaa

KANGEN INDO LAH, kangen semua saudara jugaaaaa, moga moga gue bisa balik yah tahun depan, moga moga juga study gue lancar disini, pulang pulang bawa prestasi banggain ortu.

last but not least gue baik baik aja di sini, sehat sempurna, makasih semua supportnya, love you all :D

one thing, you should know the miserable of being a creative multimedia student is everything you do you have to be CREATIVE ! -__________-

everything, and these all assignment just made me crazy. one not finished, the other will come and suffering you to done it, really miserable..

some artworks maybe enjoyable but it also get a lot of hard work to done it.

I just simply work my assignment and what I got ? I got rejected.. now I'm learning from the past, I want to do my assignment with seriousness ! go fight win ! ahahahaaa

and also, I wanna share another artwork I've done in drawing class, this painting about light and shadow, using white charcoal and black charcoal.

here, another thing I want to share, also paintings by Agung Cahyandaru. He is also a student from MMU, faculty of creative multimedia, film and animation major..
I really adore his paintings, and he is really good in paint human face and make a character. I'll share some of his paintings and also his artwork, you'll adore them too..
here, enjoy :)

Justin Bieber

himself - Agung Cahyandaru

how to train your dragon

and alot, you can see all of them in http://yandaru.deviantart.com/, don't forget to give comment and like !

that's all for my post, hope I can give my best in future, see you around all :)

artwork oh artwork

one thing, you should know the miserable of being a creative multimedia student is everything you do you have to be CREATIVE ! -__________-
everything, and these all assignment just made me crazy. one not finished, the other will come and suffering you to done it, really miserable..
some artworks maybe enjoyable but it also get a lot of hard work to done it.
I just simply work my assignment and what I got ? I got rejected.. now I'm learning from the past, I want to do my assignment with seriousness ! go fight win ! ahahahaaa

and also, I wanna share another artwork I've done in drawing class, this painting about light and shadow, using white charcoal and black charcoal.

and now I feel much better

sorry bloggie, recently this life run so busy and even makes me can't breathe normally..
I didn't get my normal time to sleep, normal hours to be an autism in front of my laptop, normal time to talk with my parents by phone, and another normal things that I used to have.
but I'm getting used to them, these things all just about adaptation, growing up, and reality.
what is my support to through all these messy things ? my mom, dad, sister, friend, and God, Who always beside me wherever I am.
and also my friends in malay, they makes me never feel bored or alone. just hanging out, watching movie or chatting with them makes me feel great.
laughing is the best medicine for me now and they can make me laugh till gonna die (ahahahahaa)
I really enjoy live in here, but hometown will be the best place ever.. really miss Balikpapan a lot !

this is rani chairunisa from jakarta, funny, pretty, kind, but so forgetful ! ahahahahaaa, we are at the same course, same subject, same time, and many another same things.. next month, I'll move to another apartment, and she gonna be my roommate.. love to hanging out with her, and do a lot crazy things with bitchy (what I called her) ahahahahaa
here some photos I wanna share :

@ KLCC - Kuala Lumpur - Malaysia

drawing class with kiki and rani @FCM


taraaaa, and this is the result, ahahahahahaaa... :))

another interesting thing, I learning a traditional dance in here, SAMAN dance, from aceh - Indonesia, saman dance also known as one hundred hands dance quite famous in malaysia, and mmu is the best saman dancer in malaysia (yeeeiy) , the dance was so difficult, you have to get the rhythm correctly so it'll be same with other dancer, and also you have to kneeling for a long time (hurt so much) but I love this dance, and trying to do my best for the next performance..
wish me luck guys for my performance and also my studies, I miss Balikpapan a lot...

can't take my eyes of you

You're just too good to be true.(true)
Can't take my eyes off of you.(you)
You'd be like heaven to touch.
I wanna hold you so much.( hold you so much)
At long last love has arrived.
And I thank God I'm alive.
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.

Pardon the way that I stare,( the way that i stare)
There's nothing else to compare,
The sight of you leaves me weak,
There are no words left to speak,( words left to speak)
But if you feel like I feel,
Please let me know that it's real,
You're just too good to be true,
Can't take my eyes off of you,
(musical break)

I need you baby. if its quite alright,
I need you baby to warm my lonely nights,
I love you baby. Trust in me when I say okay,(it's okay)
Oh pretty baby, don't let me down I pray,
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay,
And let me love you,
oh baby let me love you. oh baby

(key change)
You're just too good to be true,
Can't take my eyes off of you,
You'd be like heaven to touch,
I wanna hold you so much,(hold you so much)
At long last love has arrived,
And I thank God I'm alive,
You're just too good to be true,
Can't take my eyes off of you,

(musical break)

I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm the lonely night,
I love you baby. Trust in me when I say it's okay

Oh pretty baby, don't let me down I pray,
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay,
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you oh baby

Oh pretty baby, don't let me down I pray,
Oh pretty baby, now that I found you, stay,
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you oh baby

I need you baby, if it's quite alright
I love you baby, you warm the lonely nights
I need you baby, trust in me when I say it's okay

can't take my eyes of you - lauryn hill

my daily activities + melaka on trip

kuliah udah mulai padat dan semua itu membuatku mau gila. FCM, falkutas yang kupilih ini ternyata tidak semudah dan semenyenangkan yang kukira. Berat, sangatlah berat.. Tugas-tugas yang diberikan bukan hanya 1 atau 2, tetapi hampir membuatku hanya tidur 3 jam semalam untuk menyelesaikannya. Weekend pun tidak seperti weekend, tetap dibayangi oleh tugas-tugas yang menumpuk. Belum lagi kegetiran akan finishing dari assignment-assignment itu karena dibuat dengan buru-buru sering kali hasilnya tidak maksimal dan pada akhirnya di reject dan dibuat ulang (shit asli shit yang ini). Tugas-tugas yang masih numpuk : MLA journal, paper collage 15 lembar a3 (mau kumakan hidup-hidup lecturenya), kliping, dan line design. Memikirkannya saja sudah membuatku ingin mencabuti semua rambutku..
terlepas dari kegilaan kuliahku, weekend kemarin kuhabiskan untuk refreshing sejenak ke melaka (sempat-sempatnya). Melaka really a nice country, kayak jogjanya Indo. A lot of history building, culture, and also shopping place ! walaupun panasnya bisa bikin pingsan, aku, rani, wulan, naddya, and shamin tetap semangat beleha-leha sana sini mengelilingi kota melaka. Sebenarnya masih belum puas karena hari minggunya kita pada disuruh main futsal (asyik juga sih futsalnya). Pengen balik kesana lagi, ngumpul2 duit dulu baru balik deh..
(aku ngerti banget bahasaku di postingan kali ini kacau banget, sudah gila soalnya ditumpukin sama tugas-tugas fcm yang sinting)

my favorite song

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
Beautiful melody, when the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy (Yeah)
When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars
hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone (Yeah)

When my world is falling apart,
when there is no light to break up the dark
That's when I (I, I) look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I, I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful (Yeah, Yeah)

When the waves are flooding the shore and I
can't find my way home anymore
That's when I (I) look at you

You appear just like a dream to me.

kujalani dan rasanya

well, melihat postingan sebelumnya yang membawa heboh di keluargaku karena kujadikan status di facebook, aku memutuskan untuk menggunakan bahasa indonesia dalam menulis di blog ini, pasalnya dengan bahasa indonesia, bahasa yang udah aku pake dari kecil memudahkan aku untuk mengapresiasikan perasaan dan juga pengalamanku. Mengenai kehebohan keluargaku setelah membaca statusku yang berbunyi :

" selama ini aku berjalan menumpu pada kedua kaki orang tuaku sehingga aku tak tau seberapa kerasnya tanah yang mereka injak setiap hari, sekarang aku mencoba berjalan dengan salah satu kakiku sendiri, dan merasakan betapa kerasnya tanah itu... "

membuatku hanya geleng-geleng kepala saja. Ga ada maksud aku sedih, atau depresi berada disini ( di mana tepatnya akan dijelaskan sebentar lagi ) , itu cuma sebuah kalimat yang tiba-tiba melintas dipikiranku, dan itu semua memang kenyataan. tetapi tidak mengandung maksud kesedihan dll, jadi bagi keluargaku tercinta jangan salah paham yah, aku senang kok disini, walaupun nothing better than home :)

now I'll begin my story, setelah masa-masa terindah SMA ku udah berakhir karena kelulusan yang udah menjadi kodrat setiap anak kelas 3 SMA, aku melanjutkan pendidikanku (padahal kalo heechul siap nikah aku mau kok :p ) ke negeri Jiran alias Malaysia, tepatnya di Multimedia University (MMU) Cyberjaya . Siapa sih yang bisa langsung betah di suatu tempat yang asing ? I think no one, dan hal itu juga yang berlaku ke aku. Cyberjaya tuh panasssnyaa bukan main, agak gersang dan jarang ada pepohonan, tapi kotanya unik, bersihh, dan cantik. Aku belum menemukan rumah kumuh disini, semuanya rumah cantik, apartement, villa, gedung kantor yang tinggi-tinggi, dan masih banyak lagi bangunan cantiknya. Aku nyewa apartemen di cyberia sebelahnya MMU, walaupun sudah sebelahan tetap saja jalannya jauhh dari apt ke kampus :( (kata mama gapapa biar kurusan). homemate ku tiga orang malay ( neddya, syamin, farizah ) dan satu orang indo ( ka ana ), mereka berempat pada baik semua dan asyik banget.
registrasi di MMU tuh super mumet, gedungnya jauh-jauh dan banyak yang harus diurus, dan tetap panasnyaa ampunnn.. pas english test aku kenalan sama 2 anak indo ( rani dan wulan ) and sekarang mereka jadi temanku di MMU sini, di cyberjaya sini cuma ada satu mall yang gede, namanya alamanda kalo kesana juga agak jauh harus naik bus dua kali, tapi tempat nongkrong di cyber banyak banget dan anehnya ni kota kalo sore-sore sepi aja, tapi kalo dari jam 12 malam sampe subuh ramee banget, banyak orang nongkrong, makan, nobar, dan lepak ( artinya : ngerumpi ) ehehehe. Disini banyakan pakai bahasa melayu, tapi kalo sama foreigner nya yah pakai english. Foreigner nya kebanyakan arab, india, western, iran, dan nigeria, so kalo mau ngobrol sama mereka harus pake english ( tapi ga pernah juga kok ) ehehehehe..
kemarin malam tepatnya aku, rani, wulan, ka ana, neddya, syamin, jalan bareng. kita dibawa makan ke P.9 , aku makan roti john yang lumayan terkenal disana, harganya 2,7 ringgit tapi ga habis karena banyak banget rotinya, rada eneg juga, alhasil setelah makan kita be lepak bareng lalu jalan-jalan sambil foto-foto, here they are the result :

kuliah aku belum mulai, masih nunggu english test result. English test ini yang ntar nentuin perlu apa nggak kita ikut kelas english dulu 3 bulan, baru mulai masuk kuliah. Aku daftar ke Faculty of Creative Multimedia foundation, khusus untuk fcm ini harus ditempuh dalam 4 tahun, tahun pertama namanya alpha, baru beta, gamma, dan terakhir delta. Di alpha belum ada penjurusan, ntar di beta sesuai nilai kita di alpha baru masuk penjurusan :)
panjang banget yah postingan aku kali ini, ehehehee.. sebenernya masih banyak yang mau diceritaiin tapi pada lupa semua, ahahaha.. thanks readers for the support, I'll love you always, and now I miss my fam and also my bitches so badly !

kedua kakiku

selama ini aku berjalan menumpu pada kedua kaki orang tuaku sehingga aku tak tau seberapa kerasnya tanah yang mereka injak setiap hari, sekarang aku mencoba berjalan dengan salah satu kakiku sendiri, dan merasakan betapa kerasnya tanah itu, ketika aku tau betapa kerasnya tanah itu walaupun hanya kurasakan dengan sebelah kakiku, aku bahkan takut untuk melepaskan keduanya,takut kakiku tak mampu menahan sehingga aku terjatuh. tapi orang tuaku dengan bijak berkata, " tidak apa-apa nak semua itu adalah tantangan hidup dan semua itu harus kamu lalui, dan ingatlah selalu pada saat kamu jatuh nanti kami akan menggapai tanganmu dan menggendongmu dalam pelukan kami, karena kami tidak akan pernah membiarkanmu sendiri." - angela chintya wu

birthday blast

just a selfcam before the party

well, 9th may was my sweet seventeen day.
I made just a litter dinner with my family and friends. We had a great time, but I felt sad because not all of my friends can't joint my party..
not so much things to say, just another random party.. sing happy birthday song, make a wish, blow the candle, dinner, and chit chat, ahahahaa..
I receive a lot of pray and wish from my friends and family, thanks for that..
here some photos :

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the present :

thankss for everything guys ! love you all ~

trueblood

recently I'm addicting to watch trueblood, really can't stop to watch it !

" True Blood is an American television drama series created and produced by Alan Ball. It is based on the The Southern Vampire Mysteries series of novels by Charlaine Harris, and details the co-existence of vampires and humans in Bon Temps, a fictional small Louisiana town. The series centers on Sookie Stackhouse (Anna Paquin), a telepathic waitress at a bar, who falls in love with vampire Bill Compton (Stephen Moyer) "

here the main cast Sookie Stackhouse and Bill Compton

Bill was a romantic vampire and also kind, he only drank sookie's blood and become monogamy. Sookie also drank vampire blood from Bill so they become connected and soulmate..

All of vampires in trueblood look stronger than vampire in twilight saga. beside that they really look like a real vampire, their pale face, their fangs, their strong, and many more ! I especially adore Godric, the master of the vampire, he has lived for 2000 years but still looks very young, handsome, and also so strong !

I've watched trueblood season 1 and 2, and can't wait for third season ! ahhh.. I suggest y'all to watch this serial , no regret !

Super Junior - 4th Album BONAMANA

what can I said ? shit shit shit ! they all make me speechless ! what can I said ?
Super Junior - 4th Album teaser have already made me faint !!!
their concept, their new look, their costume, their make up, haaaaahhh all stunning !
I can't believe it although they can't perform in complete member but they still did thei best !
with SJ Funk genre, I believe this album could be as same great as the 3th album (sorrysorry)..
can't wait anymore to watch they full mv !
my heechul ~ kyaaaaaa... I always love you and now more, eheheheee ~
here the teaser, enjoyyy !

who can understand a woman's heart ?

- who can understand a woman's heart ?
women are the most mysterious thing in the world, they keep change all the time and could be so unpredictable. Men always can't understand a woman heart for 100% but woman can easily get the hang of a gentle heart. But sometime woman could be a selfish dangerous monster that can make their foe beg for a help. Woman really a curious thing and I say this as a woman too.. Woman can feeling and thinking a lot of thing in a same time and this thing ain't any man can do it.
and now where the hell this feeling come, I really proud to born as a woman..
21st april is Kartini's day (a ceremony day for respect woman) maybe a little late but better than nothing, I'll say garder à l'esprit pour toutes les femmes sur la terre! Remains a passion for all women in the world! Wave your wings and move on!

my mood : I don't really know but now I become a mellow woman and like to hear mellow song and watch a drama movie.. look my new layout and my blog's song, they both so feminine, ahahahahahaaa

As A Man - Gummy

Browsing would be my daily activity because I just don't know what to do at the moment.
End up my highschool life and got this damn respiratory tract infections just makes me like an idiot who stayed 24 hours at home, shit ~ ahahahahaa..
well, I found this interesting video, actually this was a music video from Gummy's ( korean singer ) new song - As A Man.
I like this music video because It was like a short drama and totally a romantic story..
here's the plot :
in the beginning it seems like they (the man and woman) rent the same apartment and tried to call the owner but couldn't and ended up living together. As time their relationship grew and the woman wants more than what they have now. She hinted rings and babies showing a readiness of the next level. But, the man was not ready for the commitment ad kind of freak out. He ignored the girl. the girl get the hint and about to leave. The man kind of thinking of it and when he fall and sees the girl. He knows that they belong together..
heheheheee.. what a romantic story.. so check it out guys ~ ehehehe, see you around :)

a message

source : www.allkpop.com

Although none of the Super Junior members have publicly spoken up about the situation between SM Entertainment and their Chinese member Hankyung, it seems like they do know what’s going on and they miss him dearly.

On the 28th, Heechul updated one of the photo albums on his minihompy with a anime picture and a long poetic caption. He wrote:

There is a friend of mine.

The friend’s Korean isn’t the best but he’s amazing at Chinese
This friend’s singing is alright but he is really good at dancing
I like cats and this friend likes dogs
I can’t cook but this friend is good at cooking
I always cursed but this friend always laughed

But..
Now that time has passed, I never did anything good for him kk
It’s making me sorry..
When he was next to me, I never did anything nice to him kk

I don’t self-pity myself usually..
I think I’m just drunk which is why I’m crying kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

It’s a special and sacred thing to have someone beside you
Though I grew up, I never realized that

But
A lot later….Now I know.. Wow..kkkk

There’s a reason why you should appreciate what you have

Saying “I miss him” is a phrase I can use now. (-┏)

The tears that never came out when I filmed sad scenes
Are coming down painfully now.

It sure seems like he’s going through a hard time. He doesn’t fully say it is Hankyung he is talking about but honestly, who else could it be?

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haahh , this problem could be the worst thing that super junior has through it.. loosing their 2 members is really really a big problem and a big miserable, hope it can't be true..

by the way, I love heechul's new blond hair, he looks like a doll, ehehehe..

just one word and that's all

well, 26 April 2010 could be the most memorable day in my life and that's only one word which already changed my life..
"GRADUATE" yeaaaahhh ! I've finished my high school ~
every time I look that paper and read that word, I feel so great ! this word makes me have to step to another phase of my life. college.. haaahh..
this two years passed so quickly..
I also got nice score from my national examination, 53,5 from 60,0 , not so bad isn't it ? ehehehee
Indonesia Language : 8,60
English Language : 9,60
Math : 9,25
Physic : 8,75
Chemistry : 9,25
Biology : 8,00
although that day was a happy day, my body can't celebrate it.. because I've got bad flu, headache, and also a little sore throat, damn.. what a great combo ! hahaaa..
well, I hope I can do my best for the future and quickly get soon, :) bye all ~

the party was over

the party was over, but the fun still leave ! yeepp, yesterday was my prom day..
it held in Novotel Balikpapan at 7 pm - 12pm.. I came a little bit late, cause I started prepare anything at 6 pm, ehehee.. I did my basic make up, just powder, blush on, eyeliner,mascara, and lip gloss.. and not forget to coloring my nail with black nail polish..

I don't really prepare for this prom and don't have any special theme for my costume, but I just wanna look as me, so I chose black color for my costume, and here my look form hair to toe, ehehehee...

total look, a little bit gothic, huh ? ahahahaaa.. Idts (I don't think so)

and here some photos that I took at the party..

with ibech as the committee of this prom
and I also went to backstage and taraaaa..
I took photo with dave, randolf, and also eky as mc for this prom ! (good hob ky !)


ibhe - me - dave


ibhe - me - randolf


me - eky
(uhh, the flash makes my face look so whitee, poor eky.. ahahaha, he looks darker than usual , ahahahaaa)

and now with acapella : (to : all acapella "you guys look so great that night, you look better than our senior from axel.. love you guys, eheheheeee)

with accapella (miss devi, liny, and boys)
and I personally love venny's dress, feminine and cute..


me, tata, lisa


me - deris
ahh... I really like this photo.. ahahahahaaaa (not because the man, but still he was a great leader for our class, hay bang der, ahahaaa)


me-diana
I assume this picture as a picture of celebrity (me) who takes photo with her fans (diana), ahahahaaa.. peacee !

and the last of acapella :
all of us..

eheheee....

that's all my report about this memorable prom, I really wanna spent this prom with my all 11 grade friends, but I never regret being in smansa and acceleration ! that was really really a nice memory ! thanks all guys, never forget, always keep in touch, muacchhh, xoxo !